Worldofmyown

Thursday, December 31, 2009

YEARLY REFLECTION POST 2009

How do you spend your eve? I am currently staying at home, just came back from Grandma's place. Intend to go countdown with leow but I overslept(was taking a nap)till 5.30pm when we're suppose to meet at that time. Woke up,oblivious about whats happening and told my mum about it and she said we had a family gathering so last minute I told him I cannot make it. If only I am with a big group of people counting down,watching fireworks,partying,taking pictures,enjoying myself. Currently watching channel 8 and 5 countdown tv show! So anyway, here comes the reflection post for 2009! :D

Another year has passed.
I can't believe I am taking O level next year.

This year was a tough and eventful year. Because I had never felt so hardworking before. Especially for Mathematics. For the first time in my life, I am officially a N and O level candidate. Having to sit for a major exam and having to been through mugging sessions and late nights with everyone and worry for results, the nervousness in me when I saw the exam papers right infront of me, first time stepping out of my comfort zone and started to work at a hotel as a waiter. Knowing how important education is and got to study really hard to get a better job in the near future,how cruel the society may be once I stepped out of school and lastly, how difficult it is to earn every single cent which I took it for granted to just take money from my parents and complaining to them about my dis-satisfaction towards my own life. I want many things, but they couldn't afford. I am really not a filial son, but I think work makes me a better person in terms of mindset and behaviour. Also, work has provided me opportunities to meet more new friends and exposure to more people because I had served weddings,company dinner&dance,asian television awards,tpjc prom night and all. I am so glad god allow me to meet them and they were not those fussy guests that some of my friends had met. So this year, I had balance between school and work in which both had taught me lots of things which will eventually be helpful.

Also, I would like to THANK EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU. For all your encouragement,words,well wishes,smses,tags,facebook messages. THANKYOU SO MUCH! I need motivation, I need concern, I need love from you guys and its amazing that you're my friend :)

The happiest moment in my life is with family and friends. The 3D2N Thailand trip with family during the March holidays, never-ending shopping, stress free environment at Thailand. What I did is just waking up, sumptuous breakfast buffet and really enjoy myself for the entire day and back to rest. Its just awesome if I am able to lead this kind of lifestyle. In Singapore its just totally different. Sometimes we just need to have a slow pace of life to see the world. Next, having to meet up with the express people like edison,justin and the rest every morning at the canteen tables, the chit-chat session in the early mornings and I will never fail to laugh at how both of them will just argue and bicker with each other. It feels heartwarming to see everyone during school days, those hi's and bye's and having to text with each other while we were preparing for N/O level. Of course, having to do well for my N level. I am glad I prove to myself that whatever obstacles I met, I can overcome it with the help of god and myself. Seriously, life ain't a smooth ride for all. I have a period of time when I feel so stress out and did so badly for my mid-year and it was totally a nightmare. If you know, I only had my own buddhist organization tuition which was definitely not enough. I mostly depended on myself to do well in my studies with the help of friends. I struggle at times, but I tell myself I will just persevere and clear all my doubts, keep trying and I guess everything IS worth it. I remembered how I really drill myself during those period of time, chinese intensive lesson when me and weiting will always feel very tired and sleepy in class because we just keep doing other school papers. But it pays off with an A2 :) Completed ten year series to prepare for N level, time was extremely precious like I will really treasure the one hour while watching the tv and having dinner,then after that it will be studying AGAIN. x100 worried for Maths especially I had sprained my neck in the morning for paper one. You know I worked so hard for it then I went to school with a head that can only look straight and can't turn right/left/up/down completely. I didn't smile, everyone was telling me not to worry,relax but is actually the pain that is the main reason.

I dont do well in my academic last time, more of like during the primary school days. Many people looked down on me in the past and even thought that I wouldnt be able to pass my PSLE. But I have prove them all wrong, and I swear I will never let people look down on me and my family. I will work hard and give the best to my parents. As I said karma, those who looked down, laughed behind my back, insult me were better than no where. Just wait and see because even till now I remembered what you said and what you did. God will punish you for your action so I do not have to say more even though I still have this kind of hatred to them.

From 2E blog, Miss Chan's entry:
This is great news for all of you who are going Sec 5 - and indeed worthy of celebration. After the celebrations, go back to school with the correct attitude and really work all you have for Sec 5 - for your dreams. O levels is a leap from N levels, so you will really need to put in all you have - don't be complacent, don't waste even the first 1-3 months playing and enjoying yourself without studying. Since you've spent so much time for 4 years, don't waste everything down the drain for your final year, okay? Don't lose yourself in pc games, lan games, bgr, blah blah, and lose focus. Whatever that is, don't give up - fight!

Yes. I cannot be complacent.
I cannot be stress.
I cannot waste time
No matter what, just keep trying and I will keep fighting till the end.
This is the REAL last step to my dream course and career. I need to work hard for it.

Many people were saying 2009 isn't a good year. But I think its alright for me. 2010 will be a better year.

My resolution for 2010 :

Do well for O levels. Get into mass comm/chinese media&communication at Ngeeann. I know I am not a competitor as compare to other students whose english is so much better than me to get into mass comm. Also I dont listen to english music often, so that is just another disadvantage. But I am going to give it a try, if not chinese mass comm will do since I already intend and set my aim to be a 933 deejay so why not?

Stop being a spendrift. Please,my bank account is decreasing. It just increase when my hotel just bank in my pay. A lesson learnt. Its scary how I do not have any financial planning and just keep spending from a few hundredSSSSSSS to a few dollar. I will never let this happen,again.

Have enough $$ for a surgery(impossible). Sweaty palm sucks. Do you even think I want it? No.

Exercise and train more. I am only able to do 1 pull up and pass my napfa test. Can you imagine?

Get rid of pimples because they actually cause me to lose confidence when I saw other guys with smooth face!

Learn how to swim. I know the basics but was having flu in sec 1 so I couldn't hold my breathe in the water so ya lah I fail the test the instructor dont wanna give me the 1 frog certificate! lol.

Attend vocal training at some music school. Ahem, it includes if I have got extra money. What if one day some music company director thinks that I got potential and sign me as a singer and I will be famous? HAHAHA. Its not wrong to just - daydream :D

Attend radio course, 5 days for $500+ dollars. Totally zz.

Improve on my command of english. Really, sometimes my tongue twisted while speaking in english.

There is just so much to push fate. I just pray that God use whatever little I
have and multiple that to do my best in everything and put me my best-self, to
always stay by my side, leading and guiding me. I thank the people who believed
in me and everyone around me was so willing to help me along, in a way or
another. No one knows what I am thinking, no words under heaven could ever
describe.

To end this entry, THANKYOU 2009 for being such a good year for me. Its time to say goodbye and hello 2010. Bring it on and I am looking forward to a brand new year, a fresh start and a new beginning.

MEMORY LANE.....

PS : Is the pictures too small/pack? I think so. Nevermind :)

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

[Edited]
I just went to a warehouse sale and bought a Adidas shoe + shirt at 92 dollars!
Yes I am gonna wear that Adidas shoe to school after new year :)

PS: I just called in to yes933 AGAIN! hahaha omg so happy.
Seriously I feel less-nervous while talking on air now!
Dedicated songs to all my family,friends-BENLEOW IS LISTENING and everyone around me.
Hope that in the coming 2010, we'll all be happy.

PPS : I finally got a hair cut. Neat and tidy.

PPPS : My taste is right! I went to 77street and immediately this bag catches my attention.
Then I realised this is the new edition bag from Billabong website!
Most probably getting it soon.

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LAST DAY OF WORK

I remember how we attend training together and have my VERY first time..
first time attending to guests,serving them
first time pouring drinks, clearing/change the cutlery
first time walking in a complete dark ballroom while serving the first dish
first time serving cocktail
first time doing dry ice while the bride and groom is walking in

I remembered I made lots of mistakes while serving the teachers.
Learn from all those mistakes and tell myself not to do it again.
To be more aware and careful the next time.
Eventually from all the experience I have gain, I personally think my service skills improve.
And at the same time, I would like to thank those people at work for helping me!
Especially the guys who helped me to carry some heavy stuff when they saw me struggling and sweating. Lol.

Unfortunately, I am unable to bid farewell to some really close friends there.
Samantha, Sumatra, Yangping, Emily, many more.

Today was average. A total of 6 turned up out of 10.
Less work, less energy. But the atmosphere was just weird without the rest.
But still got shengho,john,jesper and others so at least I won't feel bored.
Normally me and taiyang will be at the same ballroom,working together.
Then during my last day WE WERE NOT IN THE SAME BALLROOM. Sian lor!

All in all, I enjoyed working and hongxiang, the manager was telling me to study hard for O levels.
Yes I will and with that, HELLO MONEY. :D

Monday, December 28, 2009

Pizza hut, 313, plaza singapura

Met up with Alfred today to hang out at pizza hut.
Yes I can't believe I am going out with a CHAO AH BENG hahah!
Talked about lots of things and then we went to somerset 313 because I wanna get a tshirt at vintage.
Yes I finally bought a shirt with a print born actor and its hot pink!
Then headed to uniqlo and we both bought jackets.
His one is black, mine is sky blue. Totally love it to the max.
Plaza singapura to accompany zy to pierce ear,he was influence by alfred lah.
Home sweet home, alfred was very tired because he do not have enough sleep for the past 3 days.
And I just called in to yes933 and chatted with ChongQing on air! :)

PS : A few more days to school reopening. I WILL cherish the last few late nights.
I will watch as many tv shows as possible,surf the net,slack,sleep and do whatever I want before school starts.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY,SIS.

You're always the best and I really hope you'll have a good birthday celebration with your friends. :)
We quarrel, we fight, we argue. But at the end of the day, you are still my sis.
I am glad we still maintain a good relationship and is very close with each other.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

[Edited]

Okay I am back to update about the outing!
Wore a plain sky blue tee with jeans and sports shoe.
We met at 9.30am at kovan hub, assigned to each group and I am in the same team with Amelia and Hweemay!
Yes thankfully we were in the same group or else I'll be damn bored.
Very enthusiastic,never fail to always be at the front of the group and the rest will have to catch up with us.
The amazing race is just simple, a budget of 10 dollars.
Once completed/bingo like a straight or diagonal line, there will be an additional 10dollars given.

So basically, we..

went to Istana building and take a group pictures.
arcade to play a round basketball game.
tcc cafe with a whole grp of 7 and ordered ONLY a cup of milk for 5.85dollar.
we were the first customer after they had open and i guess they thought its a good start by doing our business,but sadly no.lol.
took pics with 4 different races : chinese,malay,indian and caucasian!
Yes we very buay-paiseh go ask an angmoh to take pics with us and they agreed!
waited for a pregnant lady at the maternity shop and took pics with her.
wanted to find a NS man but we got rejected TWICE.
photo taking at CHIJMES and national museum.
desserts and I had yam paste,Amelia and Hweemay had mango sago.
esplanade for free performance,marina square food court ,suntec city for food food and more food.
loving hut for potato wedges and drinks.
took pics with Singapore flyer at the background under the rain and umbrella.
tried our very best to complete every task and we are suppose to gather at 5pm, kovan hub.
reached by 5.25pm, all the rest had arrived,waiting for us.
debrief, prize presentation and HELLO MY GROUP GOT THE FIRST! Am proud to be the team leader,haha :)
followed Amelia and Hweemay for their bumper car rides.6dollars for 5mins-.-'''

I am happy that through this game, we had an interaction between strangers and us.
Most of the people we met are all nice people, except for one ns men which gave us attitude.
While, its just a small favour to take a photo only what. Whats the big deal?
But nonetheless, we had a great time and it just feels good to walk and eat and walk and eat and keep taking pics.
Oh and I love the dark chocolate that was presented to us :)